Im happy but there is a heavy feeling of sadness in my heart that I just can't remove. Why am I like this?

What I am trying to say is that when you stop trying to change yourself into something you are not, you give yourself the gift of discovering yourself as you already are.

Most people that know me would probably describe me as a social, happy, and somewhat quirky person with a twisted sense of humor.

And the sadness?

To a flat Earther, what's wrong with the idea that gravity is simply a force inherent to space which operates only in one dimension? Why do they go further and try to deny gravity rather than just saying it's different than physicists claim?

So I finally threw my hands up and said something to the tune of “fuck it, since I can't seem to change, I’ll just be whatever I am then.”

So if you are sad - like me - then be sad.

I was tired of trying and failing.

Employee Checking Box Truck Finds Nest Of Stowaways After A 700-Mile Journey - The Dodo - For Animal People

The sadness was still there.

What most people don’t know unless they’ve looked more closely is that there is also an element of deep, profound sadness that has always been with me since as long as I can remember.

You are like me, then.

Autódromo Hermanos Rodríguez Viva Mexico 250 Fantasy NASCAR Confidence Rankings / Post Practice Predictions - ifantasyrace.com

Now, this may sound like a story of failure and giving up, but it’s actually a story of liberation.

Your job is not to be the manager of your life, but the one who discovers yourself fully.

You are the masterpiece you came here to discover.

Ray-Ban Meta vs Oakley Meta: The Ultimate Smart Glasses Showdown of 2025 - Yanko Design

I had run out of hope.

I was tired of fighting.

Be who you already are.

Why do so many people seem to hate Nickelback? They're competent and entertaining, and while they certainly aren't the absolute best music, they're still a fun listen.

It’s still here.

It’s here now, writing to you.

In the absence of a should, I was free to be as I am.

‘Cheers’ star George Wendt’s cause of death confirmed - New York Daily News

It’s impossible to overstate the freedom and peace I discovered, and I realized the only one who had been keeping those from me was… me and my imagined standards and expectations for how I had imagined I should be.

This interpretation lead me on a path of self improvement, to fix what I considered to be “wrong” with myself.

Needless to say, my failed attempts to fix my sadness simply brought me more pain and suffering.

Unreleased GeForce RTX 3080 Ti with 20GB memory spotted on eBay - VideoCardz.com

When I stopped trying to force myself to be something I am not, I gave myself the freedom of being who I am.

It wasn’t until about 10 years ago that I finally fell out of that ferris wheel of trying and failing to fix myself.

For much of my adult life, I interpreted this sadness as something being wrong - with either myself or my life in general.

Apple Pulls Ad Campaign Fronted By SNL Star Just One Day After Its Debut - LateNighter

But no matter what I read or practiced, I could never make the sadness budge for longer than a few fleeting moments - and even then, it was likely due to me being distracted from the sensation of sadness rather than anything actually shifting.

Without resistance, sadness has a sense of beauty and depth I cannot find otherwise in life.

It’s difficult to put into words exactly what caused what, but to the best of my ability to describe it, I felt as if my will to keep fighting was beaten right out of me.

Why do people have polyamorous relationships?

But unlike before, there is no more resistance to the sadness.

It’s the most beautiful and liberating thing in the world.